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(Acts 17:11: Please learn to do your own Bible Studies like this one – here)

Exposing The Stronghold Lie And Demonic Kingdom Inside And / Or Around You Of Rejection

Everything I write here comes from the Word of God, the blood of the Lamb, my story, and my experiences and discovery. All comes from my repentance and my boldness to brokenly share the freedom I have truly found, which I used to not have, in my best friend, Abba Daddyo (God The Father).

Diagnosis to see if you have it

Ask these questions of yourself with absolute, pure, and brutal honesty:

Do you feel God is for you a lot, but not completely?
Is there questions inside of you going:
- You could, but why did you not intervene in this and this situation God?
- You could, but why did you not help me, God?
- You could, but why did you not help them, God?
- You could, but why are you not showing up more, just revealing yourself?
- You could stop it, but why is there so much evil in the world?
Do you know you are the righteousness of Christ – but you are still struggling knowing and walking truly intimately as best friends of Abba, Daddy, Father God?
Do you struggle with truly hanging out with Daddy God one on one?
Do you feel God is far away?
Are you angry at God and you believe this is a good and healthy theology and way to approach God?
Do you self-satisfy through choosing over-eating, bad drugs, smoking, drinking, over-exercising, over-spending, over-gambling, self-harm, time-waste, watching porn, day-dreaming – ever, pleasing people rather than God?
Have you learned to suffer unfairly and to see all others suffer unfairly and still declare – and fully mean it in every way, with no doubt, no hesitancy, no “but see this”: “Daddy God is wholeheartedly good!”
Do you try to reach God and appease God through doing good, serving, volunteering, praying, Bible reading, church attendance, loving people, living in your calling, doing miracles, really – doing literally anything – rather than simply remaining in the loving intimate truly satisfied with you, friendship of God proven through the blood, cross, unjust suffering of the perfect loving Jesus Christ?
When you are sick or others are. When your finances are not good. When those closest to you. When leaders – also even church leaders or “big” leaders. When parents mistreat you. Do you feel God should have done something about it?
What if you prayed and asked God to intervene – even many times – and nothing happened? Do you feel like and believe God could and should have done better?
Add your own specific challenges against the true love, goodness, justice, intimate friendship of God heart for ALL people.

If ANY of the above is true of you – you have a heart of rejection, an orphan heart. The enemy has convinced you God is not completely love, completely justice, completely true, completely fair, completely trustworthy.

And if He is not reliable, trustworthy – completely – then the logic is clear and right: You cannot trust Him completely! And if you cannot do that – then you cannot give yourself completely to Him. He started being unjust, not reliable. Then why should you treat Him better than He has treated you?

A Real Truth To Insert Here About This World

Jesus cast real evil demon spirits out of people when He walked the earth. They are liars, and they are rejected – denied the bliss of Heaven, for they have wilfully chosen rebellion, darkness, evil, death, and destruction forever. They are rejection (hold onto and ponder that thought). They ooze it. It’s their only nature. It constantly flows from every thought, feeling, and action in their personality and their plans. And they try to influence us humans to accuse sweet Daddy God of being unfair, of rejecting us – those liars.

I Have Great News For You

In this process God will not ask you to deny the injustice in the world – or in you. You can and must remain on the side of truth, logic, justice, love. Also this is not about denying the pain, the hurt, the rejection, the loneliness you have felt, feel now, or will feel. There is full recognition and a full seeing and sensing from me and most importantly, Daddy God, of both the logic, the thoughts, the feelings that you have right now.

A Wild But True Thought

This is not about you accommodating God and being better than Him in your evaluation. This is not about you forgiving God for the evil He has failed or will fail to stop! We make ourselves better than Him in justice, truth, and love if we think so. The consequence of a rejected orphan heart is that we make our judgment better, more righteous, more loving than God.

The other consequence is that we try to earn God’s recognition. If it’s not a free gift already completely given – then we have to earn it! All earning of God’s satisfaction is demonic error. And the hardest kind of “earnings” of God’s love and people’s love Christians do is to to obey and be radical for God – so that they earn God’s love and make Him see us and make Him do things better for us… Noooo… Repent into His already always love for you. You are His satisfaction already – only due to the blood of Jesus. Holy Spirit in you is the evidence (John 14:16-18).

Already now begin

This is how you enter, say and believe, and rest in and remain in this: “The blood, suffering, death, and obedience of Jesus proves your wholehearted love for me forever. Holy Spirit I agree with you in me. Abba Daddy! Hi Dad. You and I are best friends. You are always fully satisfied with me in Christ. You love me fully. So, I love you fully back. I trust You – for You trust me.” Do this, say this, as wholeheartedly, as friendly, mean it as much as you can – continually. Living in this, believing, receiving, remaining in and acting on this is the meaning of life.

Think And Ponder Honestly And Deeply

If any of the negative mentioned above is even 1% true in you. If there is any agreement in you to anything there at all, then you are infected with the poison of a bitter root judgment of rejection against and mistrust of God.

Hebrews 12:15-16 ESV

See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God; that no "root of bitterness" springs up and causes trouble, and by it many become defiled; so that no one is sexually immoral or unholy like Esau, who sold his birthright for a single meal.

God Sees You And Knows You And Wants To Heal Your Heart

God knows it – and is trying lovingly, gently, not with manipulation, to help you see it, take ownership of it – and repent into the fullness of the goodness of what is true.

Are you willing to repent into His goodness? (Romans 2:4)

The Cure – The Medicine – The Good Message

God does require you to maturely now use the free will He has given you. This is an action of chosen faith based on pure external fact in the crucifixion. Will you choose to proactively choose to take a deep new and deeper look at the cross with me that will cause you to judge Daddy God, Jesus Brother, Holy Spirit – completely not guilty forever?

The challenge is to do it – every time something is not perfect on earth…

Please fully realize this logic sequence of facts

Jesus was 100% perfect in love, justice, and honor, and only deserves to be treated well, to be loved, honored, followed.
Jesus was therefore extremely 100% unjustly mistreated by all AND by me (and you).
He took on Him my (and your) beating, hate, rejection. He also took everybody else’s.
He did not stop this 100% injustice against Him – even though He actually could have (Matthew 26:53)!
He endured in love and He remained in His Daddys love through the whole beating, public ridicule, and rejection by friends, family, leaders, and followers.
He didn’t accuse Daddy of injustice for what happened.
Through the whole ordeal He did not go into self-pity feeling sorry for Himself – like I personally did so much – not actually realizing and fully admitting to myself that I did that sin.
In the most extreme unjust suffering that has ever hit anyone, He remained in the perfect love of the Father and inside that intimate relationship foundation platform of pure love, He obeyed His life calling. He was empowered, due to His agreement with truth by the Spirit of Truth – gentle and all powerful – Holy Spirit.
He did it like that. Now I must follow Him doing exactly the same when I suffer, storms come, trials hit, injustice flows against me or others. Also, in the most extreme and hurtful versions of grief, suffering, injustice, rejection, hate, misunderstanding, broken expectations, hopes and calling of God!
When I see Him like that, like He truly is – suffering in love (1) for me, (2) for the Father, (3) for Himself (Mark 12:28-34), empowered by Holy Spirit Abba truth (Romans 8:15-16), He has fully earned the right to the fullness of my obedience in true justice and love, from the heart.
This sacrifice of Jesus carrying the entire sin of the world (John 1:29), suffering for it, dying for it – PROVES – God absolutely HATES sin – and is ALL IN with no compromise against ALL sin. He hates it in you, hates it in me, hates it in EVERYONE EVERYWHERE ETERNALLY.
This external proof of His wholehearted all-in love for me through His very real blood, suffering, and death outside myself remains perfect – even if I do not. He fixed in perfectly, eternally, Himself.
This is given to all from the heart of the Trinity. A perfect gift if intimate friendship by the blood ALONE! The clear requirement from Abba, Jesus, and Holy Spirit is – choice.
Free will is the necessary ingredient to love that has any value at all.
God is love. He cannot deny who He eternally is.
This must therefore be voluntarily chosen, believed, received, and acted on by each individual in order to be experienced personally.
I can only say: God met me right there – in my suffering, where I chose to remain and believe, receive, confess, and act on – that Dad and I – we are best buddies – no matter what other people do or do not do or what I have done or have not done.
I end up having to be mature and take complete responsibility for my sin of unbelief in the complete goodness of God and the resulting root of bitterness, accusation, hiding, shame, rebellion – agreement with satan, the accuser.
Has Jesus earned the right for us to follow Him? His victory was in remaining in and never leaving the love of His Abba – in the midst of suffering. My victory is achieved the same way, in logic agreement – no matter what I feel or experience.
But there – right there – Holy Spirit has met me again and again, confirmed in me the heart-cry: Abba, Daddyo – we are best friends right now.
Like Jesus: There in doing that, He found Daddy always loves Him – no matter what happens on earth. And terrible injustice does indeed happen on earth.
In doing that I found His love in me, with me, fully for me. A new food to eat. Before I ate, and believed in a level of rejection. Now I recognize that as truly a lie directly from the pit of hell – from demons. Now I repent into “eating” the true full adoption to be His favored deeply beloved son. The food is true, works, it is pure, it is right, and good, and very healthy.
I found Daddy’s love expressed in the cross. For the cross was the plan of Daddy (Ephesians 1:4-5, Matthew 25:34, Revelation 13:8, 1 Peter 1:20), because Daddy loves Jesus, and Daddy loves us. Jesus got a bride, Daddy got His sons, Holy Spirit got an intimate friend and temple.
I have found, that I must take on me the responsibility to repent, to remain, to cast out demons, to raise the dead, to make right choices. Have I done this based on me choosing to look at Jesus on the cross? Then I realize the fullness of my rebellion, hatred, laziness, excuses, the lies, the pride, the hard heart, the doubt. That is my sin and that is my responsibility, and I have failed – not God! Never. Yes – the devil helped destroy me. But I am ultimately responsible to believe what I have chosen to believe. I must repent and do what is right from now on.
Yes – I am fully loved. Cannot be more perfect in His eyes. Cannot be more loved that I am. I am as loved as Jesus – through the blood alone. Now it is my responsibility to live that out. To obey His every command – both generally in His Word and specifically daily.
Only by us knowing, believing, receiving, and enjoying the pure love of Daddy in this way – can we healthily receive His command in James 4:5-10 5 Or do you think Scripture says without reason that he jealously longs for the spirit he has caused to dwell in us? 6 But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: "God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble." 7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9 Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Based on His grace and mercy, we must take our fair share (not too much or too little) of our personal and individual responsibility for our unbelief, disobedience, and rebellion, agreeing with satan – and the consequences of that in our lives and the lives of those around us. The same goes for everyone else, and the demons, and a fallen nature. All share in having done evil. All will be judged for it – fairly in the second judgment.
- In this process be careful. The enemy will probably attempt to make you now take all the guilt, blame, and shame – and even to make you the very death-worthy essence of guilt, blame, and shame – maybe even tempt you to commit suicide. No, refuse him, command the demons of shame, blame, unjust accusation and blame to go. Look at Jesus who cleanses you completely by His blood. But do take accurate responsibility for what you have done wrong. And see that others need to do exactly the same. Those 2 (grace by His blood and responsibility for clear sinful acts) are not opposites. It’s false for you to take all the blame for everything. Just like it’s false for you to take the blame for nothing – it you’ve done something wrong. The tactic of the enemy also lies in unjust use of judgment – too much or too little. The Holy Spirit of truth, Jesus, the judge of all the earth, the all knowing, the all loving God – will help you as you ask Him for help to ponder this and judge this accurately. You might say: “I shouldn’t judge.” That’s simply another wrong so-called “Christian” sentence. Paul said this: 1 Corinthians 6:2-3, 5 – 2 Or do you not know that the Lord’s people will judge the world? And if you are to judge the world, are you not competent to judge trivial cases? 3 Do you not know that we will judge angels? How much more the things of this life! … 5 I say this to shame you. Is it possible that there is nobody among you wise enough to judge a dispute between believers?
The fact remains now and forever established as this: Dad’s heart is bleeding, broken, in pain, and suffering, in loneliness, in and with Christ on the cross bearing my sin FOR me. All in. Wholeheartedly for me – forever.
Dad healed me through Holy Spirit meeting me there – in every one of my hurts and accusations and feelings of rejection – by showing me Jesus remaining in Dad’s love, thereby remaining loved, thereby agreeing with eternal Holy Spirit confirmed truth on the cross.
I now co-suffer with Jesus in my suffering – in His love. I am merely being treated like Him. Now I have learned to respond like Him.
It’s not like He did nothing about the suffering. He remarked that this is wrong. Before the cross He strongly stood against injustice, unloving behavior, pride, unbelief etc. We must do the same. He cast out demons, raised the dead, healed the sick – we must do the same – etc.
Yes. I had to – and still have to proactively choose every day to take up my cross. And truly change, to repent from accusing because of hurt to by fact faith action – remaining loved. Because I am intimately fully, gently, humbly loved! It’s the truth forever.
I refused and still refuse to go with my old demonic pattern – and started a new one. Not knowing if it would work. But by faith in the fact of the blood, suffering, death of Jesus – I remained in the love of Jesus, Father, & Holy Spirit.
And I have found: It works!!! For it is true!! And He is truth!!
It starts with the arrow pointing to your heart, your choice. It always starts there. Then, when you are healed, you can go heal others.
Now when you have repented, the legal right of the demons are gone, then simply command exactly like this: “Every spirit of rejection, self-pity, rebellion, accusation, self-satisfaction, bitterness, grief, sorrow, sickness, up and out of me and away from me. Lucifer, satan – it is over. I burn you. All it is is lies. Jesus became rejection for me on the cross, so I have never been rejected. I burn you with holy fire judgment. Go back to the pit – every one of you and report to your master. I have lost this one. Every time I try to attack and tempt them, even when things are not going well in their life, they just run even further into the loving heart of the Father and strengthen their intimate friendship with Him even more. I need to stop. It’s not working anymore. We lost this one.”

Follow up and further rooting in the love of Abba Daddy

Make no mistake about it. This decision will be contested by people, events, sermons, prayer types, cool catch-phrases, false dichotomies, demons, and your flesh, your sinful atoms in your body that are groaning, dying, and in rebellion of life – for they are co-fallen, under destruction, dying (Romans 8:20-22). This requires focus and work (Hebrews 4:11). The very purpose for our life, the meaning of life, and the number 1 calling we have is at stake – for if we get this right – we will do what we are called to do in a healthy way.
All this is, is that we align with, say yes to, and agree with and act on by spending friendly non-religious love-time one, what Daddy, Jesus, Spirit God already says about us. How He sees us permanently through the blood of Jesus. We must make the decision to freely agree with who and what we are in His eyes.
Again: What if you genuinely prayed – and nothing happened, yet? Theology and doctrine must be right as well or we will find excuses to remain in rejection:
- Problem: There is legal math that doesn’t seem to match up here, that we must deal correctly with: God is good, loving, fair. He is truth and true accurate justice personified. He is almighty and nothing is impossible to Him. Then why does He not stop all evil or more evil? If we are best friends with Him why does He not always hear us and answer us when we pray?
  - When we enter into this process we eventually come to the place where we must let go of bitter accusation against God. It feels like forgiving God. But that would mean, He has done evil. Part of forgiveness is to decide to not bring incorrect judgment against anyone. But it does not involve calling injustice justice. What it is, is to remove our incorrect unjust bitter accusations against Him. Jesus on the cross proved it is not in God’s heart to do injustice – for there He took all the injustice of the world on Himself – thereby fully condemning injustice to death! We need to wake up and realize we followed satan in his accusations against the heart intentions of Daddy, Jesus, and Spirit. The conclusion then is: We obeyed satan. We submitted to satan and worshiped satan in that action. Our job now is to repent out of that agreement – into agreement with Holy Spirit in us declaring: ABBA DAD!!
  - Anger – indignation against injustice – what to do: Yes, you must in all that – like God – learn to be truly angry and correct it, be filled with righteous appropriate indignation against sin wherever it is found:
    - First: In you (you repent!)
    - In Christian leaders who are compromising
    - In friends, family, and followers
    - To judge evil in demons
      - – in you, in others to death – like Jesus, Daddy, Holy Spirit did – hating it with a furious passion, for it is evil, dark, unfair, and from the pit of hell!
  - Both Job and David and we today deal with this bitter root accusation against God. Many Christians misinterpret Psalms and Job.
    - Job 1:21 – God did not take away as many Christians think! It is crystal clear: God loved Job and was SUPER proud of him and satisfied with him. satan accused Job. God could only prove satan was wrongly accusing – by allowing satan to rob, destroy, and kill. Job misunderstood the situation! satan accused and took! God was not the initiator and desiring this! Did Job grow – yes by repentance into stopping his unjust accusations – read the HUGE rebuke of Job and his friends (Job 32-40).
    - King David clearly suffered from a root of bitterness which caused him to go into adultery, murder, lying, stealing – the very worship actions of satan agreement and worship. And yes – in his Psalms he goes into bitter accusation – and then repents (Psalm 73). But he didn’t at the time of not obeying his call, getting idle, and lazy, and then watching TV Bath-sheba (2 Samuel 11).
  - They say – be angry at God – He can take it. I say: Do not do that, for it is based on a lie that God is not wholeheartedly 100% for you. No, instead: Exonerate God. It is demonic of you to be angry at God. To judge God guilty separates you from deep trust, intimate fellowship, and real friendship with each member of the trinity.
- God has called us to responsibly rule the earth (Genesis 1:26-28, Genesis 2:15). It’s our responsibility to rule ourselves and believe Him (Romans 8:6) for the impossible and greatly supernatural in complete submission to Him and in friendship of our initiative as well. We have te accept that He does not manipulate anyone – but honors everyone’s free will. Free will repentance sometimes takes time. We are co-laborers and friends with Him. Have you taken that level of responsibility for yourself first? To fully repent into all His goodness, peace, and joy over you?
- Something amazing happens – when we, with no other purpose, no other agenda than to hang out with our beloved Daddy – just do that. No purpose other than heart to heart quality time with Him. Then He gets happy. He just decides to somehow somewhere bless us. I found, as I started doing that, over time, my biggest prayer requests began to be answered and doors and ways were opened to relational, financial, calling of God restoration for me. Based on acting on this Scripture: Matthew 6:5-15. Doing this is where I truly learned to hear from Daddy in Heaven – Who lives in me and is my Best Friend.
- We need humility in understanding. We do not always understand the bigger plans and judgments of God – yet. But we are to work on understanding it (Proverbs 25:2, Proverbs 2:3-8, Hosea 4:6). Please do not use this Scripture as a silly, non-Biblical excuse for not seeking to understand the will, ways, decisions, and judgments of God: Isaiah 55:8-9. This is simply about His ways not being the ways of our flesh! But what DOES the Bible actually say: 1 Corinthians 2:15-16
- Patience, perseverance, faith: Maybe it’s too late for something to happen? Maybe someone died and clearly didn’t believe in Jesus? Trust in the justice of God in all things. Each one is truly at the end of the day, individually responsible before God. In other cases: Maybe it will happen. Maybe there is war in the heavens between angels like there was with Daniel (Daniel 10:13)? Maybe you need to spend more time in Daddy’s presence – crying out for justice (Luke 18:1-8)?
- I was angry, disappointed and felt rejected by God in my life. I had a debt of 200.000 EURO – pure debt with no coverage. I was battling porn, had asked God for help, and still watched porn. I didn’t have a good relationship with a close family member and was so sad. We had a house far away, we couldn’t sell. I had 3 painful prolapsed discs in my back. I was not at all living in the fullness of my calling. But after I repented into Daddy’s goodness and remain there only by the blood – all those things have been fixed over 3 ½ years!!
What do we conclude then about us and Daddy’s heart for ALL? Like Jesus said:
- Luke 12:32 – "Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom.”
- And in Romans 8:31-32 NIV – 31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If Abba Daddy God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave Him up for us all–how will He not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things?
- His heart is gentle, humble, yes, broken and bleeding, all-sacrificing for you. No manipulation. Your 100% free will choice. Just giving, loving, sacrificing, suffering, paying your bill for free. I love that Guy!

In this we must understand

We are legally made right by the blood and death of Jesus alone. The blood washes us completely eternally clean before all 3 of the holy trinity of God. We are now the holiness, purity, justice, perfection and righteousness of God – only by faith.
Then the even more important and beautiful result also is that our intimate relationship with Daddy God is completely restored through being made perfect – and listen carefully: In His eyes and evaluation this is true! And His opinion is all that matters – for He is God! He IS eternal truth! And my job is now to simply agree with Him – based on that wonderful fully true forever truth.
I have not deserved this. Therefore, it feels wrong. I have undeserved it, in fact. I messed it up again and again. Just like it felt weird and he felt like a liar, an unjust stealer of the blessing, for Jacob to be blessed by Isac. This is the feeling we must overcome against the flesh, our sinful nature, and demons – so we receive it. Do not, like the Jews of Pisidian Antioch (Acts 13:46-47) consider yourself unworthy of this love and grace. Jacob was irrevocably and truly blessed (Genesis 27).
Now we are Daddy’s best friends. Both His heart first – then ours, fully reconciled with and fully at peace with each other through the blood of Jesus.
This then leads us to be fully obedient to that very true and pure love in all kinds of action.
This leads us to rightly understand the 2 judgments and properly separate them and properly only set judgment 2 of doing good deeds on top of and after judgment one.
So, as by grace, by faith, freely and fully justified, as God-chosen best friends of Daddy in His eyes. As we proactively choose to agree with this. We go out and do mighty exploits. We do mighty love and power deeds even though suffering, just like Jesus did, when He did, what was right! This – God loves. This – God blesses. This is amazing!
Realize Jesus, Holy Spirit, Daddy is there in you with you, comforting you, seeing you, recognizing you, feeling what you feel, agreeing with you that what people, demons, and the world have unjustly done to you was wrong! He co-suffers in you, with you (John 15:20, Matthew 10:24-25, Romans 8:17, 2 Corinthians 1:5, Philippians 3:10, 1 Peter 4:13, Colossians 1:24).
He does not run away from you, from your sin, shame, dirt, failure, or from your suffering. He runs to you. You must choose to run into Hi, into His loving arms, into His fortress of love. You must choose to take the leap, walk on the Word of the stormy water, let your heart trust that He is good, especially when it’s hardest and when you previously used to not do it. This is called repenting into His goodness (Mark 1:14-15). How good is this repentance (Romans 2:4)!
Those who are adults all need to make their own responsible and accountable decisions – standing before Jesus completely alone for their lives. Look at the cross!! Dethrone your idols of physical circumstances and emotion. Look to the cross only!!
One thing I often do is: Physically breathe deeply into the depth of your stomach and receive the fullness’s of love, peace, and satisfaction of your loving Daddy. This is such a good physical act to remember the peace covenant Daddy, Jesus, Holy Spirit have made with you forever.
Now you should be able to correctly answer this questions: If the whole world is against you and yours and all hell attacks you and EVERYTHING literally physically and emotionally collapses. Does God still love you wholeheartedly? Will you choose to see it solely on the cross? That is the question.
The same kind of faith in acton is required as the faith Abraham had (Romans 4:18). Have you brokenly with faith against fear, against mistrust, against the physical and emotional, collapsed away from fear of being hurt and disappointed by Daddy again (you thought He didn’t like you), into finding and experiencing His soft, bleeding, gentle, and humble heart – no matter if everything gets fixed physically or emotionally?
1. Then there is a much great chance things will move upwards and forwards for you there – “… for when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.”

Will you choose to remain in rejection or adoption? Will you remain a little hurt child or be mature? Will you choose to believe God is good – or not? Look at the cross!

Take action on the fullness of this truth – and you will find what I have found: Wholehearted reconciliation to the One who is already wholeheartedly for you, the very loving humble, gentle heart of the Father. This is a strength to remain intimately close with the Father in any and every circumstance. I have found Him there – with me and for me, loving and comforting me in my suffering – when I remained 100% in His love when I suffer. This makes me invicible. For in me lives the strongest man in the world – and I agree with Him – not with my flesh or people or demons.

I repent into remaining loved by Abba Daddyo – through the blood of the New Covenant alone!

My experience was like a death leap, it was an action against my old wineskin habits. It was what I thought was an “insecure path” untested dangerous path. I am vulnerable – and you hurt me. But was that action on a lie I believed? Will God actually be there to catch me when I come broken, hurting – for I am used to running away from God hurt and angry. Have you chosen to crash and know that you have crashed – and then to find safety in the arms of Him – who you thought was unreliable?

There – I crashed and broke as a hurting person – and I found Him. I found His love, His presence, His ears and heart, his wholehearted love for me. There, in His co-bleeding with me (Romans 8:17, 2 Corinthians 1:5), loving me first (Romans 5:8, 1 John 4:19), I found the real exposure of the love of Dad against the lies of the enemy. I saw how the liar lied from his lying nature, and I believed it. I then rejected the true rejecter – the rejected one due to rebellion, death, and darkness, satan.

Since then, I have continually first, in all things, run deeper into the arms of my Daddyo, who truly, wholeheartedly, loved, loves, and ever will love me. And if I failed at that, I have shaken off the dust, taken ownership and re-agreed with Holy Spirit that due to the blood, this is my fully purchased permanent right – and I have done it afresh.

Lamentations 3:21-26 – 21 Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: 22 Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions (mercies and grace) never fail. 23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore, I will wait for him." 25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; 26 it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.

My story of freedom from pornography

How I freed myself from a 17-year bondage to pornography, rooted in a sense of rejection and resulting self-pity from God.

So my appeal, my urgent encouragement to you is to go to the Father now—with all your pain, fear, sorrow, rejection, abandonment, hurt, and injustice—and at the same time acknowledge that it did not come from His heart—but from the evil one, from people and the world—and therefore you can acknowledge: He is there with you, in you, alongside you, the most beloved friend—for that IS He.

That was where I needed to go to be freed from my bitterness, my root of judgment against God. It was there, by looking at Jesus’ suffering and temptation to believe He was rejected, that I saw He did not believe that. And that I saw He had 100% the right to choose self-pity —for what happened was 100% unjust. But He chose, instead, full obedience under God’s plan in love for the Father and remained in the plan despite the world’s most unjust treatment. And then I see that the Father forsook Him. This means the Father forsook Him, so I NEVER have been forsaken by the Father, Jesus, the Spirit.

Jesus said: it is finished! So this is eternally true.

This is the missing piece of the puzzle. I was missing it.

Up to the darkness, Jesus bore the same injustice as all of us!

The darkness—that took our sin and lost the Father’s presence and approval and the power and peace of the Holy Spirit!! He took it from you. The condtion for you to experience it is if you will receive it and remain in that fact no matter what happens to you.

There He was, being what we could not be – perfect. Only a perfect who does not deserve death – can take death for someone who does. You cannot take 2 death penalties. Therefore you are not abandoned, rejected. Those attitudes against you have never been in His heart! Satan has lied to you and said they were.

And therefore, since Jesus was tempted to reject His Daddy, He fully understands you in your unjust suffering and temptation – and His way of dealing with it is our example of how to deal with it and win – like He did!

Fact: He is there—in your suffering. With you. In you. For you. And as you choose Him, you find out He has already run to you. He remains in His love for you in the sorrow you feel, the pain, the feeling of abandonment, and He can fully meet you there – and He does. That is faith! A fact according to God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit—in His eyes, His judgment, His opinion, His Word, His cross, His deed, His heart.

Now you must believe this and prove it in action. It is 100% up to you.

In the faith, trust, and action of running to Him in the storm – THERE HE WILL MEET YOU, for He experienced the same and His way of dealing with it, which is to remain in Daddy by Holy Spirit power, is how we must choose to deal with it too.

If not – you will fight alone, in your own strength, without Holy Spirit already believing in you. And you will loose, for if you do not focus on the love of Daddy, you are alone, weak, defeated already – for you are living in a hellish lie. Repent into the goodness of Daddy God with you, Immanual, God with you, Jesus, Prince of Peace.

Scripture for further study

Is all of this in the Bible? This is 100% the core of the Bible.

Please read:

Psalm 22

Isaiah 53

Read the four stories of the crucifixion according to Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John

Galatians

Romans

All the letters of Paul

Hebrews

James

Revelation

All the Old of New Testament

This is the New Covenant Daddy God has made with us all!

In the 3 hours of darkness on the cross Jesus experienced lostness. Our sin was laid on Him. Jesus became an orphan. Jesus became rejection. Unforgiveness as well. Condemnation. So, you could be saved, forgiven, adopted, fully accepted. This is what you are in the eyes of the Father.

Now remain there.

This cannot be undone by anyone – ever!

The strength of the blood, the cross, the faith, and the will you have to choose it personally, cannot be underestimated. The blood of Jesus on earth is forever established and poured out in the eternal temple in Heaven before the Father on the mercy seat (Hebrews 9:11-12). This means – you cannot destroy it. You can only receive it by faith in the fact – or not.

The incredible beauty of this is also that you can add NOTHING of you own deeds to make it better. And by your bad deeds you CANNOT destroy it. In fact, if you think your sin destroys it or you good deeds make you more qualified you have completely misunderstood how perfect it is – and you become a self-righteous Pharisee – trying to earn your way into Heaven. Either Jesus was absolutely perfect or not. And therefore you are absolutely perfect already – by faith alone – or not!

Jesus said: IT IS FINISHED!! And He was perfect. That means, since He took ALL your sin, there is NOTHING on you when you believe in His blood, suffering, and sacrifice for you. He has taken and has even also BECOME sin – so we are now the righteousness of God IN CHRIST.

When we have submitted ourselves to these wonderful, beautiful truths and remain – then the attacks and lies of the enemy become so much clearer – for they never line up with: I am so 100% personally loved through the blood of Jesus alone. Then we see his lies, attacks, his self-pity, his filth, his impurity, lust and self-satisfaction, rejection, false accusations. And THEN – we get happy in the head to understand – that dude and his underlings need to fry in the fire of Holy Spirit judgment. We have authority over them ALL and we must use it – just like Jesus did after the third temptation (Matthew 4:10-11).

To remain in our identity and then use our authority is not a defeat. It is to maturely be using the tools we need and have been given for free. And it matches perfectly with this:

First submit to the wonderful liberating truths of God. Then use your authority:

James 4:5-10 – 5 Or do you think Scripture says without reason that he jealously longs for the spirit he has caused to dwell in us? 6 But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: "God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble." 7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9 Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

Pray this raw, broken, honest, real contrite prayer:

So, I come to you Abba, Daddy. I am sorry for hurting your heart. I am sorry for wrongly accusing you, agreeing with satan, that you are not good, fair, and trustworthy. I am sorry for keeping my heart away from yours because of believing that lie. I remove my eyes from detecting and evaluation your love through the behavior of people, demons, and a fallen nature. On the cross only do I see your complete hate for injustice and yet – your love for me and all others. I see how you humbly suffered in love for me! You now, therefore get my whole heart back. I have hurt myself, you, and others because of it. I take ownership of choosing to obey satan in unjust accusations against you. I regret it and take them back. I repent into your goodness. I repent into the Sonship you offer me absolutely for free. It is perfectly and completely bought and paid for by your blood, suffering, and death. I repent into the intimate friendship you give me for free – that I clearly do not deserve. I deserve the opposite – yet, you keep loving me, suffering in your heart for you long for me with your whole heart. I am truly your beloved child – and you miss me. You hurt for me, you bleed for me, you suffer for me. Dad – you suffered when Jesus was sent by you, with Jesus and Spirit agreeing fully – for my sin separated Jesus, your eternal Son, from you. I am sorry for that on my behalf and on behalf of the human race. I repent. I run with a broken heart of trust and hope and faith and love to you for you to catch me there. Where I deserve nothing good – in fact, I deserve hell. I deserve judgment. I deserve rejection, loneliness, fear, hate, darkness, and punishment for I agreed with lucifer to reject your beauty, love, honor, value, and intimate heart friendship. But you have already decided to love me – in my extreme condition of retaliation against you. I repent – and I receive your wholehearted eternal love for me. I receive your offer of total all of the time friendship.

What a reality that this is the reality we live in. The love of the Father, the Son, and Spirit – forever!

Jesus, Daddy, Spirit. You all 3 individually won my heart that when I realized my sin, you came to me humbly, gently, understanding, forgiving, yet, also pointing to the lies I believed – but not with harshness, shame, rejection. When I feared rejection because I deserved rejection, I got adoption. The enemy had lied to me – that I was rejected. You did not come with rejection, judgment, and hate, though you could have. You are not hard at heart, but broken, soft, suffering injustly, like me – who suffers injustly, but I also suffer justly at times. You only suffer from the consequences of bad free will choices. You could have brought fire. You could have rejected me, left me, let me alone. You could have gone away from me in my sin – but you came close. You came closer than a brother – right when I feared rejection. You loved me in my shame. You, Jesus, did what had to be done on the cross.

There, on the cross you could and should have stopped and brought fire. But you took it. The shame, the rejection, the suffering, the sin of the world was laid on you. But you loved me as the suffering servant through it all.

Therefore, I run to you, and I am saved. I am safe. I see this and receive and believe it and act on it – for the proof is on the cross, the suffering, the death, the blood.

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